Had a good chat yesterday with bro,
Was asked why I gave up without even trying.
Why I had so little courage, no confidence.
Seriously, it's the first time I had so low courage and confidence in myself.
My feelings got deeper for you.
3months, 3 months,
I done nothing.
So what is there for a girl like her to develop feelings on me
And... and
She's so busy.
We rarely meet now.
Hope to fade,
But it went the wrong way.

I'm a Pessimistic fellow.
I know it well.
But if my intuition fails me so,
Please tell me.
I can initiate no more.
You're the only one that can save me out of this emo ****
Just tell me the 3 words.
You should have knew who you are.

If my intuition are correct,
It doesn't matter anymore,
Numbed.
I'm letting it go anyway.

No backbone literally for the first time. =(
Where'd my couraage gone, aww.

tata~

my new belt

cant find the picture, but it's brown colour monogram de.
similar one.

awww I wanna go out,
Army liao, lost alot of contacts.
somemore changed Hp during army, forgot to save into my SIM card the hp no,
all lost.
sians.
or not I now will not be rotting at home..

aww, nothing much to say.

anyway I wan watch Autumn's Concerto.
New show,
Shall get myself off Sudden Attack for some time.
Trailer is as shown:

enjoy ;)

The main thing is for you to be happy.
I guess I shall step back quietly.
without any trace for you to know I've been there waiting.
without any clues for you to know that it's YOU that i'm waiting
I'm not going to fight a losing battle
In this love battlefield.
勉强是没有幸福的
I'm not loved.
I dun need it either anymore.


tata~

Just reached home, now 3.52 am =.=

Slacked at home the whole day till like 8pm den went out.
Wanted to get the stupid LV belt, but JingFu was away,
So gotta wait.
So met Alvin and gang to ShiTing's chalet for awhile.
Chatted and at bout 11.30pm cabbed back Hougang.
Went Hougang Point to eat,
Saw YuanSen JingFu Bernard JieSheng.
so I slacked with them
It has been long since the last time we get together.
tt idiot Jf didnt bring my LV belt out.
Gonna get it from him tmr.

I'm tired lols.

I really hope YOU didnt went there today..
aww still cant put up that courage.
sad.

gonna go sleep soon.
tata~

YES! no army!
Free times.
Can I meet u? =D

Sleeping early today
Gonna get back all the hours lost due to lack of sleep.
Please ShaoTing.. dun wake up in the middle of the night lols.

Felt alot better.
It's been long.
I felt so happy ;D
Tonight's gonna be a good good ni-ai-ight

Dammit,
I cannot be staying at home, or even meet the peeps,
for Sudden Attack the whole week or what lar!

I need to GET A LIFE

noone jio me go out anymore,
SO SAD.

This Saturday going ShiTing's chalet,her Birthday,
So Friday night, Saturday whole, and Sunday morning unavailable
Friday and Monday I got off from armyyy..
So good...

I NEED to go out luh.
jio me out ba!
anyone.

it's hard to make a decision.
it's been long since we've met.
shall hold it longer.
just drop it.


tata~
tata~

Past few days, hang out with Sudden Attack friends.
Met a girl, really look like Cassandra lar...
no comments =x

Anyways, taught Jeremy's gf Emaths recently,
thk goodness, from 22/100 to 43/80
THANKS TO ME =D
I have talent to become a tutor Wooo!
cant help it~~
lols.
actually is all credits for her hardwork.

I getting a pair of Specs soon,
shall look NERD.




yet to confess,
but i felt like giving up,
but such feeling remains.
if time doesnt heal,
what would be next?

I HAVE A LONG WEEKEND!
jio me out ok okokok??
Dun make me emo at home lols.


sometimes, crying just don't solve the problem.
it makes the problem even harder to solve.

The past has been haunting me.
Since then,
I've lost my courage.

It's like a hurdle, in which i could not jump over.
Everytime I wanted to text you,
I felt a strange feeling,
which led me to delete away the draft.
SMS-ing has became a difficulty.
To meet, I think it's fairly obvious. Even harder.

But, if I don't, wouldn't I lost all my chances?
Wouldn't I be procrastinating?
I'd just fall immediately.

But, Shadows of the past remains.

But,
but,
but....




What is LOVE?
till now, i felt it really sucks.
i really hate the pain.
it's killing me.


Feeling sad and frustrated at the same time.
Sad- She doesn't realise
Frustrated-I'm a coward.

fk it~

Just reached home from JY's bday party.
decided not to stay overnight.
Too crowded and messy le.

i really cannot put up the courage..
who's that guy?
i'm falling down.
down down down.
hitting the rock bottom
pain's overwhelming.


Teach me how to initiate.
My sociable skill has dropped alot alot.
Where's the ShaoTing he has used to be.
I'm like no more funny,
no more entertaining,
not so happy-go-lucky already.
no more ideas.
cannot plan.

Must build it up.
How? teach me please.
ENLIGHTEN ME

Back home from army.
Gg JiaYang's birthday chalet soon.
Tomorrow str away get back to camp from there ;]

The time has come.
But the chance has'nt.

tata~